Too Much Too Few

Quite frankly, I have nothing to offer anyone anything right now. Be that as it may, I feel I have so much to share. Although, I am still in my infancy stage in as far as my relationship to the Lord is concerned, He has profoundly gave me that sense of security that today will be better than tomorrow...and that each moment, for as long as it is done out of love is a testament that He truly lives in me and that is all He needed. Never have I thought that I would be loved...truly loved even without showering anyone with anything material.

Back in the day when I had much resources, I had very little time to think about these things much so sharing it with families and friends. My ears were for the managers and employees and for hour-long but many conference calls which cut across various timezones. My eyes were glued to emails I needed to respond to, letters I need to craft and presentation materials I have to report. I even had to have an extra PC monitor aside from my laptop so I can multi-task better. And when I say multi-task...I mean about more than a handful of tasks I juggle and squeeze into the 24-hour zone called a day...it was so full that before my day ends, another day begins and it leaves me plastered and worn out that I can't barely sleep. My hands were either stuck to the keyboard or tinkering my ever-vibrating blackberry. It was foolish for me to think that I was on top of my game. At 27years old, I was already holding a key position, handling a colossal task with global impact in a big multi-national company. Externally, I seem to look successful. Thanks to my condition called lumbar disc disease...long and straining as it is...it gave me that chance to have a fresh perspective and a new life.

I must have forgotten my purpose in life. I may be doing some good stuff but then again, was it what God really wanted me to do? I figured I was not happy. I felt I was sick. This illness has truly altered my life...this illness restored my life. I figured, just like the disciples, Jesus does not need me to be ultra-successful. He simply wants ordinary people to dedicate their lives to do extra-ordinary things for Him: cast out evil spirits, proclaim the gospel and be a living witness that faith and love cures everything.

Today, I wish you to be productive in your tasks. However, while you do your work, may you do it for the Lord and not for a promotion, not for a pay raise or for recognition. May your work find its origin to God...may all that you do bring Him glory.